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This blog is an honest look at what life is like for this particular American convert to Islam. We're taught in Islam to cover our sins, to not air them, for fear of lessening the severity of sinning. In this blog, I may relate past indiscretions from time to time. This isn't to make light of them, but in the interest of educating Muslims and non-Muslims alike as to the realities of life as an American convert, I present my mistakes honestly. I make no excuses for them, nor do I claim that they were okay to make. I am not perfect, and I make no pretenses as to that. If others can learn from my past, know that Islam, and religion in general, is open for people no matter what mistakes they've made, then I will gladly air my sins when needed.

Sunday, April 4, 2010

Multi-porpoise posting.

Lol, do you see what I did, there?  :D

I was supposed to take Gina-Bean's shift tonight, 'cause her car isn't fixed/registered yet.  She texted me earlier to confirm, I said yeah, and then I go a text just now saying she was working anyway.  Turns out her phone's not taking texts right now ... But I'm taking her shift tomorrow, and, God willing, she'll have her new car soon.

In other news, our convert support group's meeting next Sunday!  Yay!  I'm also hosting a ladies' tea party next Sunday, so it'll be after the meeting.  Gotta e-mail the two brothers I met and say, "Yo, my brothas, come kick it!"  :P

Also, my Easter hijab:

I got the idea from this hijab tutorial on YouTube, by HijabTrendz.  Should have used the yellow scarf as the underscarf, rather than my not-quite-matching bandana, lo..  ^_^  Then I just experimented.  It got a little uncomfortable around the neck, but eh, it was liveable.  If you want to do what I did, layering two of them, then you need to wrap both scarves simultaneously.  Layer one on top of the other and adjust how much of the lower one you want showing, then wrap the bottom, then the top, adjust, and repeat.  ^_^  You can fiddle with the gathers around the neck, and which parts are over your shoulders, which is nice.

Anyway, your Hijabi Waitress is enjoying her night off and right now, wishes she had a husband to rub her feet for her.


  1. Lovely color-combo! My favorite will always be purple and orange, but yellow is almst as good. I can't imagine how hot that must be, though! I get so hot just in a T-shirt (even up here in Fortuna!), I can't imagine covering 90% of my body without dying of heat exhaustion. I'd genuinely like to know how that works? Do you just need a high tolerance for heat or are you good at picking out fabrics that breath?
    How does Jim feel about your conversion? I hope that he's very proud of you <3 I've been reading your blog, but only now realized how to comment without signing up.

  2. Are you another family member that's decided to disown me? I haven't gotten any responses from you on my comments... I hope it isn't because you think that I am mocking you. I am genuinely happy that you've finally settled into a religion that you can fully believe in, and I would really love for you to pray for me so that I may do the same. I don't know what is being said about me anymore, so I don't know what you've heard... but as much of an ass as I have been / can be.. I haven't done anything that deserves losing my entire family. I only hope that it is simply me being paranoid that leads me to think that you've joined my brother in censuring me. Lately a number of problems have been addressed with my mental health including anxiety disorder, sleep disorder, obsessive-compulsive disorder... and I know that you have struggled with your own problems so you can understand how these things effect the way you act. I have been trying to get better and make up for my poor personality during high school (in particular). I've already appologized to Alisha and Miria, and now I'll appologize to you too. I know Jerry said a number of horrible things about me when we broke up, but he's appologized for that and I hope that doesn't continue to color your attitude about me. I never treated him badly when he decided it was time to end things, and I never tried to stop or punish him. Of course, you saw that we were friends afterward, so maybe you already know. At any rate, I am rambling in a public forum, so I suppose I'll zip my mouth. I just thought that I should address some of these things... since I have no idea what people think of me (or why) anymore.

  3. @ Adgee Honey, I haven't been ignoring you. I just realised tonight that my settings aren't set to e-mail me when someone comments on my blog.

    I can hold a grudge for about 2.05 seconds, if that. After a while, even if I were justified in feeling hurt upset in any way, it just takes too much effort - effort better spent on other things, like napping. Add the distance of a few years, and it almost completely slips my mind that I may or may not have been wronged.

    So no, I'm not censuring you at all. Whatever's going on between you and Kev (I'm assuming it's still him) is between you two, and I'll provide a sympathetic ear to both of you, but I don't want to be drawn into something that has nothing to do with me. But I will pray and hope that you two come to an agreement. Very little is worth losing family over.

    I'm really glad that you're finally getting medical help; I really am. You're right, I DO know how hard it is to struggle with medical issues, especially ones as intangible as mental and emotional ones, ESPECIALLY when you don't even realise that there's a problem. Then, when you do realise and start trying to bring it under control, just adds whole new levels of stress. *hugs tight*

    I completely understand. I haven't had a borderline breakdown in at least two years, and I've been off medication for even longer, so take it from me, you CAN heal.

    Look, what's in the past is in the past. Thank you very much for your apology; I haven't thought ill of you in a very, very long time. Again, it takes way too much effort. All I really care about is that the present and future are good, because those are what we can affect, you know? :) I still love you.

    And about wearing hijab, dude, I forget I even have it on most of the time. The vast majority of my scarves are really lightweight, which helps during the summer, and I try to buy thin, loose shirts/skirts/pants, and to layer as little as possible.

    Of course, one's heat tolerance plays a factor, but I AM good at picking out heat-friendly fabrics. I'm going shopping for more clothes on Friday, actually, and I need to go through my closet and donate what I never wear anymore ... hmmm ... But yeah, you get used to wearing hijab, for one, and you get good at picking out weather-appropriate fabrics, and sometimes you just suffer, and know that because you're suffering rather than taking the easy way out, God's rewarding you. ^_^

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